Sweet Memories

maybe its really time when i really lie on the bed. relax. and really really think what i wanna do in future.

well. it may sound ironic. but well. i havent been thinking what i wanted to do in future.

teacher. businesswoman. chemical engineer. researcher. secret agent.

secret agent. i just think that fighting to protect the nation is freaking god damn cool and damn courageous. (sounds familiar to guys, isn’t it? HAHA) if i am given a chance, i will and i can risk my life to protect the citizen’s life.

i dont want any big hot shot fame. all i wan was a stable job. enought to satisfy my splurging urges and luxury needs. at the same time. enough to feed my parents.

well. i guess being the eldest isnt that easy. indeed. when young, the eldest is given the best and great things as compared to the younger ones. its always them who goes through schooling first, isnt it? but the real challenge comes when teenager years no longer stays.

proceeding onto the next phase of life. and i should be more brave. more daring. try new stuffs. look good and feel good.

3 more days to sunday and i hope i wont cui my whole grp off. HAHA. though i already have my evil backup plan. LOL. when leader hears it, he was like, “eh. ni kan zhe ban ba” for once, i was glad i am a woman. LOL.

attended that lame lectures for 2 days. yes its lame but i would not deny that it actually put myself interested in the business industry. i even wondered if i have chosen the correct course. i know i shouldn’t be really regreting now. and i wouldn’t since i had a happy-go-lucky life. yes its stressful but its when u know who are the friends that are really true to you. isn’t it?

some people can just be so superficial. some people make friends because it benefit them. some people deter u cos u are just too stupid to answer ther so-called “chim” questions. however the case it is, i am just going to be myself. i am not gg to fit into the environment anymore. i lost myself. totally. my friend was right. why bother to change for others? just be yourself. given some thought and well. i agree (:

heck the demure part. i know i wasnt and i was trying so hard to when i entered uni. HAHA. i think all people who really know me would know what i was refering to. laughter. take it or leave it. THATS MY SIGNATURE. (:

maybe staying with the rightful midset would actually get things right. list of things to do when school starts. and the irony? i haven cleared my room. LOL.

annual camp approaching. i am kind of looking forward to it. things just sounded so exciting. LOL. but there is a little part of me. hoping the camp will never come. (*censored*)

exactly 24 hours later. i will face the truth of wadever shows on my efforts last semester. hopefully and i sincerely hope. things will turn out good. i already had a bad start last semester. let that be a blessing in disguise. please? (:

tml, ITS OFFICIAL! (: